Monotone Monday

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So I feel like today should be of some importance but I cannot remember why.  I hate when that happens.  It's similar to when you're packing for a trip and you can't shake the feeling that you've forgotten something, no matter how many times you've gone over and over a checklist of what you mean to bring. 😕

Today has been pretty boring.  I finished work about 30 minutes ago, and I'm in the process of washing pots & pans, using the time that it takes to air-dry them as a break, because the hot water tends to activate the numbness in my left ring and pinky fingers.  Hence why the dishes have been slightly piling up, since this issue sprung up about a month and a half ago.  It hasn't gotten too out-of-hand though, as I've been doing small loads when I can.  Although taking a shower pretty much sucks now.

Finding a Fix [Hopefully]

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So, let's start with the good about today.  I went ahead and registered for another month on Nexus.  Mainly because I realized that I could get my 11th year 'wisdom gown,' which is a sort of incentive for playing the game and sticking around.  You get a different exclusive outfit for every year that you've had an account.  So since I created my character back in March of 2007, I was able to claim my 11th year gown.  And while I didn't like it at first, I made it work, via finding the perfect color palette, or dye.  I actually like to make a cumulative graphic with every dye available in the game, which I call my dye charts.  They help for knowing what an outfit will look like, before spending money on the dye at a future date.  So, after spending a good chunk of my morning on a big event quest, I took quite a few screenshots of this new gown in some of the different dyes.  And that's the 2D version of me that you see in the top left [Apey].  Well, not exactly, but pretty close!  I only wish I had that badass dragon staff to carry around with me. 😜

And now on to the crappy, near-anxiety-attack-filled portion of my day.  After dealing with this neck pain off and on for the past 3 weeks, I finally went in to the urgent care clinic today, to see if I could get it checked out, since I do not have a primary doctor picked out.  After waiting about an hour after checking in, I finally got called back to a room, only for the nurse practitioner to appear a bit confused at my symptoms... although she did say that I would probably need a higher level of care, then she ordered a bunch of x-rays of my neck.  So I was led to the room where they do that, completely nervous and scared because I've never had anything like that done before... but thankfully, the guy that took the pictures was really nice and understanding of me being such a baby about it all.

I will say, waiting for the results was just about the hardest 25 minutes that I've had to face in a very long time.  Especially waiting by myself... going over all of the worst-case scenarios and trying to prevent myself from just breaking down crying right there in that empty room that seemed like it was closing in on me, minute by minute.  Ugh.  I hated it.  In the end, it turned out that my bones were fine, nothing was wrong, but there was a small something in the muscle area, which led her to prescribe a muscle-relaxant medication, as well as ibuprofen.  So hopefully this will fix my problem, because otherwise, I will have to go in for an MRI and I don't know how I'd handle that monster....

A Day of Pain

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The biggest news to come out of today is that my brother-in-law had another stroke. 😟  He just can't seem to catch a break lately.  I'm not sure what exactly caused it, because medical jargon tends to go in one ear and out the other with me, but the main thing is that he was still able to put a shirt on by himself and move around semi-normally, though his eye is tilted and his left arm is still slightly numb.  The doctors are conferring with a neurologist, I think the hubby said, in another city, at the moment.  I was really hoping he'd be better by now, as I know it's a strain on my hubby's mind, since he and this brother are fairly close.

Hospital Horrors

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Today has been difficult.  I did get to sleep in this morning until around 8am, which is 3 hours more sleep than I usually get on a weekday.  That was because the hubby stayed home today, because his brother had a stroke last night and was admitted into the hospital, so we took the day off to go visit him.  He's doing okay-ish right now, for the few minutes that he's able to actually stay awake and alert.  His sarcasm is still intact though, and the hubby did get two fist-bumps, so that's a good sign.  He's had a rough time health-wise, so that makes this whole ordeal even scarier.  The hubby says what really worries him is that he also has pneumonia, but he just started the antibiotics so hopefully those start working quickly.

Being up there at the hospital only reminded me of my stint in the ER back at the beginning of September last year, and how terrified I am of the place in general.  And also got me thinking of how if the hubby hadn't gotten home from work when he did, I could be dead right now, what with the 106.1 fever that I was suffering from that night.  I hadn't really realized that until he said something about it recently, after we'd seen a random commercial that reminded him of the incident.  I was so scared and nervous, they thought I was having a heart attack because my heart rate was through the roof.

Anyway... that's about all I have for today.  Still got the same damn headache that will not go away.  And I've noticed that it's making my heart rate jump up higher than normal, via checking it on my Fitbit.  I'll have to keep an eye on that. 😶

Be Wary of the Backseat

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So the majority of my Saturday was somewhat eventful.  I tagged along on a trip out to San Francisco (technically Daly City, but close enough!) for the gun show at what is known as the Cow Palace.  My husband and brother-in-law were wanting to go there mainly to attend a CCW class, which took about 2 hours to complete.  In the meantime, I sat in the food court area and started a new book, while waiting for them.  Then we walked around and the guys bought a few things.  I almost had an EMS (electric muscle stimulation) unit demonstration forced on me, until the guy finally understood that I did not want it and then talked the hubby into it, claiming that he could relay to me what it felt like.  We already have a TENS unit so I had a pretty good idea anyway.  Those pads have to be placed directly on the skin, so I just would have felt awkward having some stranger reach under my shirt, in the middle of the building.  So sue me. 😋