Speaking of Friends...

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Ugh, if I'd only known what I was going to find out later that night (yesterday). 😞  Let's just say I was reminded why I don't get close to people.  But I let my guard down and it happened, and now I'm paying the price.

It sucks when you have to forcibly realize that someone you considered a good friend is nothing more than someone who will eventually forget you completely.  This has been happening gradually for the past few months, but it all came crashing down yesterday, and it hit me that this person really does not care.  I'm kicking myself for being so stupid that I let myself believe otherwise.  And this feeling right here is the exact reason why I keep myself at a distance from others, apart from a very select few that have already proven their worth and earned that place in my life. 

The sad thing is that a part of me felt this was bound to happen, from the moment we met.  I just ignored it and hoped for the best.  And look where that got me.  I'll remember next time.

Friend of a Friend...

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Well... again, I went and got my hopes up for having motivation to post more often and I somehow lost it all.  I seriously need time to just stand still while I catch up on everything... it's no joke that time ticks on so much more quickly as you get older. 😒

So I randomly found out last week that an old friend has become friends with an ex-boyfriend of mine.  And I'm not sure how I feel about that... other than I don't like it.  I know it's inevitable that he will possibly encounter people that I know, given that they are all still in the same area, and I know I cannot dictate who my friends can be friends with (nor do I want to), but considering that it's this particular ex... the whole thing just unnerves me; I can't help it.  And I'm not even as close of friends as I used to be with this person... I just don't like knowing that they know each other, and knowing that my ex still tries to contact me from time to time, wanting to be friends, even though he should know that is completely impossible.  Ugh.  Damn relationship drama coming back to bite me, even after all these years.  Though I know it's my own fault for letting it get to me in the first place.  But like I said... I just can't help it.  My mind just cannot seem to grasp the concept of letting it slip away so easily.  Story of my life...

Anyway... now that that has put a damper on my day... I'm going to go do something fun to combat this feeling. 😉