{Tuesday Tunes} Test Me

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Playlist: The Art of Procrastination
Song: Test Me
Artist: The xx
Album: I See You [2017]

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I don't know where I went wrong
Tell me, should I see someone?
Ceiling's falling down on me
You look but you never see

Just take it out on me
It's easier than saying what you mean
Test me, see if I break
Tell me this time you've changed
I'll take it out on you
It's easier than talking it through
Test me, see if I stay
How could I walk the other way?

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So, first off, this song was completely new to my ears.  I absolutely LOVE the two other songs that I had previously heard from this album (On Hold and I Dare You) and this song speaks to me just as vibrantly as those do.  The last two minutes of the song is void of words at all, just an eerily beautiful creeping of sound that builds up to a sort of climax at the end, where you can vaguely hear the words of the song from the beginning.  Much the same way that the story of the song is building up to someone realizing that they've had enough but aren't sure if they can actually muster up the courage to walk away.

I can relate to these lyrics on an entirely too personal of a level and I think that is what is speaking so clearly to me in this song.  It's an accurate description of my life and I can think of plenty of times where I have thought this very same thing.  My favorite line is "You look but you never see."  I feel like there have been only a very small handful of people who have been able to actually see me.  Granted, part of that is because I keep myself buried behind walls of false security, but there are some who have been able to break through that barrier, no matter how much I resisted.

Definitely going on the "permanent" list. 😊🎶