{Tuesday Tunes} War Over Me

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[DISCLAIMER: I did start this post yesterday, so I think it still counts]

Playlist: The Art of Procrastination
Song: War Over Me
Artist: Papa Roach
Album: F.E.A.R. [2015]

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I'm standing on the front lines, I'm fighting for my soul

I've walked the self-destructive lonely road

I read the warning signs but I was too blind to see

I had to feel the pain till I believed

I have a purpose

CHORUS:

This is war, this is war

Since the day I was born

I would die just to live, just to bleed

I will fight for my life

Turn my darkness, to light

This is war, it's a war over me

War over me

War over me

My pity feeds destruction

My hunger turns to greed

But nothing ever fills this hole in me

No peace on the horizon

No peace in anything

I had to hurt myself till I believed

I have a purpose

[CHORUS]

I'm caught up in the crossfire

I'm caught up in the pain

This gift of desperation

Is exactly what I need

I'm falling like an empire

I'm calling out your name

I'm locked in my own prison

Tell me help is on the way

Tell me help is on the way

I will fight for this life

Turn my darkness to light

This is war, it's a war over me

[CHORUS]

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First off, this is a new one to my ears.  Papa Roach can be a bit too "screamy" for me at times but most of their songs I like.  This ended up being one of those (that I like).  I feel it's pretty self-explanatory in what it's about... someone at war with themselves... a destructive person that they used to be and the person they are now, which feels like they are attempting to be better than they were. ("fight for my life, turn my darkness to light")  Everyone has a bit of darkness in them, I don't care who you are, you do.  And it's what you do with that darkness that defines you.  That sounds a bit cliche to me, but there it is.  

The lyric I most relate to: "...nothing ever fills this hole in me."  I experienced something at a young age that permanently took a part of myself away and I've felt that hole ever since, no matter how much I tried to fill it, or told myself that I had succeeded.  And fighting to turn darkness into light is sometimes an everyday struggle, but I believe I am winning, most days. 😊

{Tuesday Tunes} Nimble Bastard

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Playlist: The Art of Procrastination
Song: Nimble Bastard
Artist: Incubus
Album: 8 [2017]

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Has it come to this?

We're stuck in the weeds

I get it, I'm not perfect, I was never trying to be

But I'm not long for this earth

If we really only ever get one chance to burn

I gotta trip before I can see the finish

How else would I learn?

I wanna know, how is it you do it?

When you land on your feet

You're a nimble bastard

And you don't skip a beat

Such a nimble bastard

Salt of the earth

Such a nimble bastard

Won't you show, lowly us

How do you see the stars from that far down?

Ah ha, I swing and I miss

And then come the creeps

It makes me want to faint

I wanna know, how is it you do it?

Ah ha, how do you spill the paint?

And then fit it into a frame?

When you land on your feet

You're a nimble bastard

And you don't skip a beat

Such a nimble bastard

Salt of the earth

Such a nimble bastard

Yeah, won't you show, lowly us

How do you see the stars from that far down?

Has it come to this?

Has it come to this?

When you land on your feet

You're a nimble bastard

And you don't skip a beat

Such a nimble bastard

Salt of the earth

Look out

Won't you show, lowly us

How do you see the stars from that far down?

You're a nimble bastard

Salt of the earth

Such a nimble bastard

Salt of the earth

You're a nimble bastard

Yeah, won't you show, lowly us

How do you see the stars?

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So... first off, the video is odd.  Lol.  This song seems pretty straightforward... I see it as someone bitterly complaining about a person who doesn't ever seem to make any mistakes and perfectly navigates through his/her life.  And the singer comes off as someone who can't do anything but make mistakes at every turn.  So he's asking how this "perfect" person gets away with it.  And can they please show the rest of us how it's done? 

I'm not sure I relate to this song as much as the last one I reviewed here.  Yeah, I've made plenty of mistakes in my life and I guess if I really searched, I could find someone in my life whom I feel just zooms through life in that "perfect" way... but I'm not bitter enough to really dwell on that fact.  I have accepted that without some of the mistakes I've made, I wouldn't be who I am today.  So I'm not really willing to give that up, just to be "perfect."

{Tuesday Tunes} Test Me

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Playlist: The Art of Procrastination
Song: Test Me
Artist: The xx
Album: I See You [2017]

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I don't know where I went wrong
Tell me, should I see someone?
Ceiling's falling down on me
You look but you never see

Just take it out on me
It's easier than saying what you mean
Test me, see if I break
Tell me this time you've changed
I'll take it out on you
It's easier than talking it through
Test me, see if I stay
How could I walk the other way?

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So, first off, this song was completely new to my ears.  I absolutely LOVE the two other songs that I had previously heard from this album (On Hold and I Dare You) and this song speaks to me just as vibrantly as those do.  The last two minutes of the song is void of words at all, just an eerily beautiful creeping of sound that builds up to a sort of climax at the end, where you can vaguely hear the words of the song from the beginning.  Much the same way that the story of the song is building up to someone realizing that they've had enough but aren't sure if they can actually muster up the courage to walk away.

I can relate to these lyrics on an entirely too personal of a level and I think that is what is speaking so clearly to me in this song.  It's an accurate description of my life and I can think of plenty of times where I have thought this very same thing.  My favorite line is "You look but you never see."  I feel like there have been only a very small handful of people who have been able to actually see me.  Granted, part of that is because I keep myself buried behind walls of false security, but there are some who have been able to break through that barrier, no matter how much I resisted.

Definitely going on the "permanent" list. 😊🎶

{Tuesday Tunes} Let The Records Play

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Playlist: The Art of Procrastination
Song: Let The Records Play
Artist: Pearl Jam
Album: Lightning Bolt [2013]

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When the Kingdom comes
He puts his records on
And with his blistered thumb hits play
And with the volume up he goes and fills his cup

And lets the drummer's drum take away the pain, the pain
Breaking, Forsaken...

What's that you're taking?
Aaw, needing the feeling
He lets the records play
Should the future dim
A cigarette lights hymn

Vaporized a green light grin
And when the shot glass talks
He knows to listen up

Until he's nice and numb again
Shakened, Awakened
Not one for faking

Kneeling, his healing
He lets the records play

There's wisdom in his ways
I been down and I fell so hard and far from grace

I been hurt and I still recall the flaws on her face
I been off, but I'm on, up above my feet, my feet again

(guitar solo)

Shaken, Forsaken
What's that you're taking?
Aaw, needing the feeling
He lets the records play
Shakened, Awakened
Not one for faking

Kneeling, his healing
He lets the records play
Oh, there's wisdom in his ways
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First off, this song is from a playlist of mine that I have specifically for new music that I want to listen to more thoroughly before moving it to my other playlists.  Sometimes I hear about a new album from a band I like and don't have the time to really listen to it, so that's where this playlist comes in, as a sort of temporary holding place.

Anyway.. the song... I really like the uplifting beat of this.  It's one of those songs that inspires me to wanna just get up and dance and forget about the rest of the worries of the world.  Or the fact that I can't even dance at all. 😂  I've always loved Eddie Vedder's voice also, I have yet to find a Pearl Jam song that I don't enjoy, even if it's just simply listening to his vocals.  He's got that unique sound that I love.

What I get from the song is that it's about a person who's depressed about something in his life, but when he hears the music, the cause of his pain is taken away and it awakens a different, happier side of him.  Pretty much the power of music in its ability to heal in a way that nothing else can.  Which I can completely relate to, since music has done the same thing for me in the past (and sometimes the present... I mean, there is a reason I have a playlist called Shinedown Therapy), when dealing with a traumatic experience.

I will definitely be moving this song to one of my permanent playlists! 😊🎶

{ Tuesday Tunes } One Love

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🎼 Every Tuesday, I'm going to pick a playlist that I have created on Spotify and, making sure it is on shuffle, play a song from that playlist.  After thoroughly listening to the song, I will post the lyrics and video (if available) for reference.  Then write about how the song speaks to me, if I already know it well, or if it's more of an "acquaintance." Sound good? 😊🎵 

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Playlist: Hazelnut
Song: One Love
Artist: Sister Hazel
Album: Chasing Daylight [2003]

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We are just children understand
We're two in a million, the precious grains of sand
We slip through the fingers, dancing on the wind
We find each other

[Chorus]

One you, one me
One chance for us to live
One heart, one soul
One life for us to give
One dream, one mind
One sky up above
One you, one me
One love
One love

A star made a wish on us tonight
Hangin' out in heaven inspired by our light
She knows how it feels to shine on all the world
And last forever

[Chorus]

Surrender all your battles
It's only love that makes us matter
We are all the possibilities
As endless as our imagination

[Chorus]
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First off, Sister Hazel has always been a favorite of mine, ever since I was an awkward and shy tween, listening to All For You constantly.  Ken (Block) has such a unique-sounding voice that draws me in every time. 😍  I love the meaning behind this song, which tells us to stop spreading hate and anger, and give in to love, which is all that matters in the end.  Maybe I love this song so much because I just despise being angry. 😏😜